The word 'deserve' can be used in many ways. People often say they 'deserve' better wages or better housing or perhaps, a larger amount in their SS checks.
Or, parents tell children, "I 'deserve' respect and obedience." Sometimes, they tell the child, they 'deserve' a punishment of some kind.
I'm sure we have all heard people lament, after a calamity of some sort, "What did I do to 'deserve' this?"
I read this morning of a man who won millions by purchasing one lottery ticket. Did he 'deserve' to win? He didn't do anything spectacular; just spent a couple bucks on a ticket, but he had the RIGHT ticket. Did he 'earn' the right to win? No bu I would bet he would like to set off some fireworks in celebration.
I had the chance to visit a long-time friend who I had not seen for a while. She and her husband sold their farm and now live in a beautiful smaller home. While enjoying lunch with them, she told me she had hearing aids. So, I told her my story. There was no whining or complaining on my part; just laughing about how many times I have no idea what someone is saying.
Before I left, she got out her checkbook and asked for the name of the company who repaired them. Then she wrote a check for the $500. I was flabbergasted...is that still a word?... I immediately said, "I don't deserve that."
She responded, "No. You don't. But I love you and I want to do this."
I laughed, took her check and will be hearing again on Friday. I didn't deserve it; I had done nothing to even remotely deserve it, I could never repay it and was not expected to; it was a gift. Free...with no strings attached.
When I realize what I really deserve, am I 'flabbergasted' by God's goodness and forgiveness and his ultimate sacrifice? I hope so.